scorpion blues

I just came back from a wonderful holiday to the himalayas…….yes its was wonderful and very overwhelming….it just shows us how small we are and egos—have no space in front of these mighty mountains…I just realised there is so much to it beyond all of human understanding…beyond life….death…the afterworld….the spirits…or god…and I know it was just FAITH……..what I think Kalil Gibran describes the best sayin…”Faith is knowledge in the heart within,beyond the reach of proof.”Something which I wish not to comprehend or get into and just enjoy the feeling and experience I had.

I still remember tht day when u behaved like a bitch and ended my blissful journey then which was a very important time for me!!…still blossoming into adulthood and when my heart was like a petal easily capable of tearing into fractions of pieces and buried…I was still trying to build myself and my heart was vunerable…u bitch yeah u major bitch…culdnt see me happy for just a little while..could u….and its been a long time since then and I will not forgive nor forget…why shuld I?…my rage is overpowering me and I will not even take into consideration buddha”Desire is the Cause Suffering”and I still 7 yrs later want to see u cry and beg for forgiveness……believe me if u came in front of me I’d kill u …..and no I wont ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever FORGIVE OR FORGET!!!!! 

Im leaving tomorrow with family,the big happy gujju family for a holiday to the himalayas actually more of a pilgrimage and not very exited bout it dunno why…my mum is so used to my ugly face and truly believes tht it for the good,cause every time I have been exited something goes wrong and now its all bout thank god shes is in one of her moods….hehe im as happy as im in my world not bothered and easily escaping the scoldings tht my poor sister recieves….

The only thing im really exited bout is the white water river rafting hmmmmmmmm amazing I dont care how freezing the water is or any of tht sort but definately jumping into it….

I just really hope all is good and we have a wonderful time and a safe trip!!!!

A while ago the papers claimed tht two lions are found dead in the Gir forests which is the only lion sanctuary in Asia and few days later again six more lions are found dead and not only dead but skinned and de-boned by poachers…why should I bother so much every single day many animals are killed so wat the big deal…IT IS!!!

This december my family decided to take a holiday to the gir forests and I cant say I was reluctant but I was definitely not very happy as my personal favorite is the Tiger but when I went there and saw them myself I still dint care much and only felt bad for tht kid(a goats young) tied up there to keep the lions alert and let a few happy intrusive tourists click a few snaps and invade wat I call mother cub time in the heat of the afternoon…and in my head I was also thinkin the Nikon D200 is the ultimate camera I should have it for obvious reasons

But when I came back and realised the value of these animals who dont have anything to do with us are just asking for wat we all want thier own space and who are we to even go in their homes and kill them ???

The local ‘vaagri tribe’ are prime suspects as they are the only humans living in the sanctuary premises in wat is known as ‘nesdas’ but I am no one to blame them or support them for me whoever is done is equivalent to a rapist and the punishment should be CASTRATION…(yes I can see those eyebrows clenching, men)but thts the solution and if they cant live nor can u!!!